When you hesitate-maybe it's for a reason.

We have decided that a third baby is not in the cards for us. So, the Search for my Sparkle is ON.

The Wagon and my Fall

I fell off the wagon-with a resounding CRASH!

Technically, I fell off of two wagons. The blogging about myself wagon and the taking care of myself wagon.

David and I decided to give a third baby a shot. I don't know why I am unable to take care of myself and ttc at the same time....but, they just don't seem to go together for me. Add in a couple of sinus infections...and you end up with a me that hasn't lost any weight, hasn't exercised, and has eaten anything that she wants.

We have tried for the last two months to conceive. We will be taking a break....maybe temporarily...maybe permanently. I don't want to have a July baby...since I know I will be returning to work....and I don't want to miss the first three months of a school year.

Hence, my commitment to myself. I am giving myself 9 months...just like I would if I were pg. I am taking care of myself for 9 months. Hopefully, when the 9 months are up I will have clarity, and be in much better shape.

Fighting the Good Fight

I am still battling the fat. I think I am winning...but, it is one of those battles that takes a while....

I only have about a week before I am back at work. This summer has been so much fun. I am sad to see it go....

A little bit of this...a little bit of that

It has been a while since I have updated. I have sort-of let this blog go by the wayside. I have a blog where I keep track of our daily life...where the grandparents, aunts and uncles can check to see what we have been up to. I have also started a Fat Fighting Blog...where I am going to detail my weight loss as I go along. Yesterday was the starting point for it. I took pictures that show every single pound of fat....and even added my measurements. I cringed when I did so...but, am hoping that the accountability will stand me in good stead.

Less than a month before I am back to work....

Vacation Straight Ahead

Yep. That's right. We leave for Cape Cod on Friday. I thought I had a pretty good handle on things. Then David asked me one simple question that has put me into a tailspin.

"Are we bringing the stoller?"

It seems like a rather innocuous question....innocent even. But...in that question lurks uncertainty.

I wasn't going to bring the stroller. Hadn't even thought about bringing the stroller. Now, I can think of NOTHING but bringing the stroller...or not bringing the stroller.

I think we are NOT bringing the stroller..... of course I am the person who was walking through the mall today either pushing an empty stroller....or...pushing a stroller with the 2 year old standing up facing backwards.....or....pushing the stroller that the 2 year old was trying to catapult out of.

Summer!

Summer is great. I am loving it....every second. I feel very spoiled however. We pay Dana during the summer so that we are guaranteed Drew's spot when school starts up....and we think it will be good for him to go a couple days a week for a half day...just so he stays used to going. Dana lets Brooke come for free. Brooke loves to go because she likes to play with the babies. So, for the last two days I have had the morning to myself.... They go to Dana on Tuesdays and Wednesdays.

Today when I went to pick up the kids Brooke begged to stay....so, she stayed and made cookies with Dana and played with a little boy her age that was there. Drew took a short nap today...so, I got to spend some one-on-one time with just Drew.

Tomorrow, Drew has his well-child checkup...and then we have a pool playdate.

Back on TRACK

School is officially out for the summer-even for the teachers! I don't think it has really sunk in yet. I am thrilled though!!!

I have done a horrible job this week at the whole weight watcher thing. There was a lot of stuff to get done and I stress eat. Unfortunately, I don't eat carrots and apples when I am stressed. I swear that every child brought me candy...and I ate a good bit of it. Then, because I had eaten the candy might as well have this or that too.

So, I am back on track as of today. NO cheating. Cheating gets you nowhere.