Making it

I remember being approximately 13 and playing with a Ouija board with some friends and it "told" me that I was going to die at the age of 14. I remember thinking that it might be possible because I couldn't imagine life beyond that point. I suppose that it was all due to point of reference. I had no "schema" for being an older teenager. (please forgive the teacher talk)

I am trying to shake this weird feeling that I don't have the rest of my life to live. Is it because I don't know what lays ahead? Is it because there is some underlying health issue that is right at the edge of my conscience? I have decided to make an appt. with a highly recommended dr. just to check on my overall health.

I am also planning on talking with the dr. about a possible thyroid problem. I don't seem to be able to lose weight, and in fact seem to be gaining at a rapid rate. I know that many people say that they can't lose weight....but, I really seem to be unable to lose weight. It seems that there is nothing that I can do that will cause the weight to come off. I have many of the side effects that are listed for thyroid problems. So, I am hoping to find something out on March 13th.